2. Go to Italy. I’ve only seen on TV.  The narrow streets with tiny market places look beautiful.

3. I wanna be a part of a historical movement. Like the French revolution or something ..or the destruction of the Berlin wall. I dont care if its not where I am, I’ll travel in that part of the world to join them. Like even if its in china or something, I’ll go there and kick some ass.

but it’s population is as big as my ball

It’s getting bigger and bigger by day,

I have a feeling were gonna have to

move to India someday.

Yea, I’m Bengali!

Thats why I like to eat curry

with Birani.

We are a little cheap

but we can do math in our sleep.

When I asked him over the phone about his first day of school, he sounded very excited and happy. He said he read things and made friends and played with toys. I wish I was there. I wish I could have taken him and picked him up from school that day. I thought he  was gonna cry when my mom leaves or something but it turns out that he didn’t. He loved it. Well, i’m glad that he did because this was the start of his life.

Education takes so long to complete. like seriously, take me for an example, I’m 18 and still doing the same things I did 10 years ago or more. I guess its not a bad thing because life without going to school would have been boring and ignorant. Anyways, I hope my brother Evan keeps loving school  and puts effort into his education. I will make sure he does.

I didn’t think too much about the movie before I watched it so that I don’t get my expectations too high. I didn’t want to be disappointed. Avatar was overall good. It wasn’t great as most people were saying. It looked like a dream land. It was so beautiful. It was basically earth in a greater scale. Like their landscape, birds in the sky, animals, dinosaur looking creatures etc were all earthly but they looked more colorful, dangerous and .. decorative. The Avatars are very tall and thin. I bet most Americans would die to become one of them. I mean, no matter which body shape you are in as a human, if you transform into a Avatar, you become thin and long. Thats what Americans want and should become, like seriously.

Another similarity I saw in this movie with our world is the nature of humans. I know that this movie is fiction but if it were to be true than that means that even in their world, we are just as destructive in Earth as we are in “Pandora”. We are each other’s enemy in Earth and the universe we share with others. We are a selfish creature.

“I know not with what weapons World War III will be fought, but World War IV will be fought with sticks and stones.”

-Albert Einstein

To be honest, I hate the fact that I came across him all over again.  Even though I knew everything, I couldn’t stop myself from talking to him. I knew he wasn’t my type of guy. He is nothing like anyone I ever met. He is just a hot mess and messed things up for me.On top of that, right when I thought we were really nice and honest to each other for these months and thought our friendship was cool, he disrespected me. I never imagined him saying those things to me. I mean I said nasty things back too but that was only because he said them first. He still sticks to his story that it wasn’t him to say those things but it is so obvious that he did. I guess he is a jerk like rest of them. Anyways, it is as easy to get rid of a person from my life as it is to involve one, just like his case. So, I no longer think about him nor do I want to. Life moves on. I’ve learned, do what you heart tells you to do and be honest to yourself – that is being smart.

Recently I have come to this conclusion that maybe Allah doesn’t exist. I realize it is a very big statement for me to make because I have always been a muslim but I think religions exist in this world to serve as an authority over people. Before modern system of government was made, religions played the same role.

I have talked a lot about Islam because that is my background, but I will like to say a few things about other religions. I have watched the movie zeitgeist and I realized that all these religions have too many things in common. I mean those who came up with these ideas were that dumb to actually plagiarize from one another? It seems like everything began with the Egyptian mythologies. christianity and judaism took characteristics of Egyptian mythology and put it into their holy books that millions of people follow around the world. Because of these religions, disastrous things have struck. For example, Palestine and Israel and India and Pakistan. Tensions still exist between them today. Therefore, religions was useful back in the days but now that we have governments, religion is useless and only causes trouble.

If Allah did really exist, why didn’t he just put the thought that he is the one in our heads since the time we were born? Life would have made much more sense if we knew. Now if u argue that he did that to test our faith then thats ridiculous and not fair because what is he really trying to test? it’s not their fault who was born in a christian society. Now, when I asked elders, they backed it up by saying when they grown up and they have the ability to think for themselves, they should realize that Islam is the right religion and convert. I thought that was absurd. Other people of other faith probably think the same.

I don’t know how to tell my parents about all this,but they have spent their entire life believing in a lie…might as spent the rest of it and also I don’t want to tell them because they’re gonna think American society has changed me. They are gonna be shocked basically. I can’t even imagine what’s gonna happen if my relatives in Bangladesh find out. They’re gonna think the same about this society. In a way its kinda true because this is a individualistic society and people have different faiths.  We are not influenced by these beliefs in school and therefore we don’t think about religion everyday… unless your family is religious. So, we think logically instead of others putting  info  in our head and eventually we think less about religion and learn to decide for ourselves. In a way, our culture is good if thats what they are complaining about.

I think I am done making all my points, So I will end for today with some quotes that I found today …

“Religion can never reform mankind because religion is slavery.”
-Robert Ingersoll

“The Christian religion and Masonry have one and the same common origin: Both are derived from the worship of the Sun. The difference between their origin is, that the Christian religion is a parody on the worship of the Sun, in which they put a man whom they call Christ, in the place of the Sun, and pay him the same adoration which was originally paid to the Sun, as I have shown in the chapter on the origin of the Christian religion.”
- Thomas Paine, 1896

Anyways, I want to list some of my feelings that I had while watching this movie.

1. I want a son! I know that I’m one of those people who never wanna have kids, but I really want a little boy. There so cute. This can lead me to a different topic of why I don’t want kids. I guess I’ll discuss it a little bit So, I don’t want kids not because I don’t like kids or because I don’t want my own or w.e the case can be. I don’t want kids simply because I don’t want to go through the pregnancy procedure. I am trypanophobic (the phobia of injections) and I bet that when I get pregnant, I’ll have to live off injections. They’ll need to test me for various things and put a needle through my skin every time I see the doctor. unfortunately, that is just the beginning. I’ll probably throw up everywhere. feel sick 24/7. and then you know what happens in the end of the 9 months. Give birth! I am gonna scream my lungs out and suffer for hours and then what if the baby still don’t come out? :O . They’ll need to cut my belly open to take the baby out. I’ll get a huge scar from that in addition to all the stretch marks and there are other things that are too nasty for me to discuss. Anyways, I think I should return to topic…

2. There was this part where they go back to India and visit the Taj Mahal. That scene made me realize how proud I am to be brown! I love Taj Mahal. Its architecture is obviously extraordinary. Its so simple yet it is beyond gorgeous. When I was trying to sleep last night, I thought of two good ideas. one, I should blog about movies that I really like, like this one. Two, I should draw again. I love to draw, so since I am so moved by the architecture of Taj Mahal, I think I should draw it. I should make like a sketch book filled with my favorite things. I think that is what makes Taj Mahal so beautiful. Now, I want to see Taj Mahal even more in real life.

3. Kal Penn is actually hotter than I thought. I always saw him as my idol, someone who is smart and all, but never have I thought of him as hot. but yea, this movie made me think that way.

4. I could relate myself to some of the things in this movie such as being Bengali. Kal Penn in the movie was named Gogol. He was pressured by the elders to live up to their expectations, one of which is date anyone you want but marry a Bengali. I can’t even do that. I am not even allowed to date, but I’ll have to end up marrying a Bengali. ridiculous ..

P.S. I also noticed after registering here that today is 11.11. This must mean some good luck